& you know its sort of sucks. today i realized how much i miss having someone there for me, not just a friend or someone to talk to but someone who actually wants me and likes to be around me… its been a while since i been in a real relationship…
and it sucks just waiting for someone, people who know me know i always say “i prefer to be single” but to be truthful i am just waiting for someone to actually catch my attention im waiting for someone who will be worth it…. i just hate waiting.
Kicking back playing my game boy, eating some Cheez-It’s and listening to Frank Ocean,Lauryn Hill, & Kid Cudi. Now that’s how u spend a fucken Wednesday.
[That ☁cloud9 type of feeling is one of the best feelings in the world.]
Yeah I’ve been living in the state of dreaming….living in a make-believe land.
Call your BoyFriend. It’s time you had the talk give him your reasons & say it’s not his fault. But you just met somebody new. Tell him not to get upset, second-guessing everything you said and did for him. Then when he gets upset tell him how you never meant to hurt anyone, you tell him that the only way his heart will mend is when he learns to love again…
i know it won’t make sense right now but tell him how you’re still his friend
And then you let him down easy.
Don’t you tell him how I give you something that you never even knew you missed,
don’t you even try and explain how it’s so different when we kiss.
Say it’s not his fault, but you just met somebody new…
everything is much less scary with a best friend!
There are no words to explain how much i appreciate this girl… I know me and her have one of the strangest friendships around, every moment with her is never a dull one. She and me have gone through so much in these past years that I could not possibly write every detail in this post but i would like to acknowledge and say how much she means to me. My one and only True Best Friend<3 the one that has never left my side even if i was in the wrong. She is truly an amazing person.
if life separates us and we end up in totally different place i will always remember when our paths alined for this period of time… and i will be thankful for that. and hope where ever you are, you will be thankful to.
Because we had great moments with each other, what i felt with you was something real… & to me our time together was something that changed me in a good way, and i want to thank you for that… because no matter what you’re one of the people that i wont forget.
& now we are great friends, and to me thats great.
May 29, 2012:
Its nice being able to come back home [NorCal] and still being able to hang out with old friends and nothing has changed, its been about 6 months since i have seen these three girls and we still act as silly and immature as the first day we met, because when we always get back together its as if nothing has changed, i think thats what you call true Friendship.
summer 2012 is going to be legit i can see it already.
Because today was just a great day.
i know i complain at times for being single but to be all honest its what i want and need right now, my previews relationship just showed me how ignorant i was about things. i was so desperate to make things work i turned a blind eye and let things go as they were going, even when i knew i was being hurt. it took me a while to realize that being single isnt bad. i need to work on myself, improve who i am as a person to actually have a chance at a long lasting relationship; i want to have a relationship where its effortless.
i want something real, even if that means waiting
the place where i grew up, i am so excited to go back for summer…. ah i miss the sea smelling air, the cloudy weather the 5 min walk to the beach from my house… i miss my friends and family… i miss my mom. its the only year were i havent been able to spend this special day with her, sigh…. i cant wait for the summer.
[May 1, 2012] Favorite Disney Character:
Meg, why? well because i feel that everyone can relate to her in a way… we all have fallen in love with someone and given it our all and at the end we get hurt… we are scared to fall in love again, even when the right person comes a long… and its hard for us to accept that they mean well… sometimes we realize that the person is someone worthy and do everything in our power to keep them… thats how we are, we fall in love we get scared we lose trust… but i learned from Meg’s story is to never give up on love, because it is better to love & get hurt then to never know love at all..
i feel like an idiot, it took me this long to realize that i deserve something better. i dont deserve to be treated like i am not wanted, im tired of all the empty ’ im sorry’s ‘.
im tired of being the nice guy, im tired of being the only one putting effort.
i want someone who will treat me right, because you know what?
I DESERVE BETTER!!!!